Letting it go... A new Chapter... | Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Its time fer me to continue life.. my life.. No matter how dead i am rite now the soul i have in me still lingers around.. Still have the little faith and hope i ever achieved and give..
She's happy i can see.. She's damn happy.. Finally she get to give her love to the fullest.. I hope tat she will not take it fer granted like wat she did to me.. Happy fer her rite now... I'll forget everything bad tat has happen.. And i'll remember her fer everything wonderful tat she let me in.. No matter inside or outside.. I thank you.. My new chapter begins.. I bet it will be a fucking long lame story.. Hehehe..
If dere wud be a time tat we r gonna meet.. i'll swear to u dis.. i'll nvr let anything like dis happen again.. Loosing u is terrible.. And if we do have a date.. Wear my stuffs yar.. like my brace and shakeys.. hahaha... juz jokin..
PEACE!!
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Traumatize forever... | Thursday, September 14, 2006
GeEzZ.. its more like hell fer me now.. I'm bad, emo, sick and dead... I'm an undead now.. Stronger then ever.. Living without heartbeats with one single motive... my only mission is to destroy and raze whoever tat i ought to do.. ppl will hate me fer hu i am now.. ppl dispise me fer wat i am now.. coz dis is simple, i lived fer just one cause.. and i intend to get it done before i left again from dis world, dis so unreliable world fer me to live, to eat to sleep or to breathe.. Coz wen i'm done ppl will remember my name a bad fren a bad cause and a bad company coz i treat dem badly just bcoz of my mission.. to destroy every faith and hope in the world in another words i juz want
R E V E N G E ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
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THANKS LIYANA THANKS!!!! | Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Thanks Liyana.. or shud i say LIAH..
Thanks fer everithin...
Dis is wad u want rite... I tot the jelousy in u will make me.. but too bad.. its all juz a matter of revenge... I thank u so much.. Dis is the only way tat i cud express my feelings to.. No one else right now..
Yeah i noe i made lots of mistakes.. And all u do is to get back to me and make me feel all time bad.. U like to hang up on me huh.. U show me no RESPECT.. Tell u wat.. dis will be my last blog or anitin today do tat will make me respect you.. Act fast b4 its too late...
I bet u enjoyed watching movie wit hendra didn't you.. saying tat u neva eat or drink.. ITS ALL BULLSHIT!!!!!! I tried to think back wat stupid things i have done to u.. and it all comes to a waste.. U waste me...
HOPE TAT U CAN GET SUMONE TO BE WITH... DOESN"T MATTER IF HE IS GONNA BE BETTER THAN ME!!!!
Dats wat u want rite.. I'll help u gal.. JUZ to MAKE U HAPPY!!!! Hmmm I BET U R HAPPY NOW... Seeing me in FRENZY!!!!! U hurt me bad gal... u juz hurt me too much...
MUCH NMUCH MORE THAN I CALLING U BITCH,, OR CHEAP,, OR ASKING U TO DIE!!!
LIYANA... I LOVE U IN EVERYWAY TAT I U NEVA EVEN NOE.. U USED MY LOVE FER UR SAKE.. yeah coz now u have other guys in ur life.. tat u can make them love u.. No need fer me anymore... RITE!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARRRRRRGGGHHHHHHH
Now i said it only fer today if u want change it like how we uesed to do.. I still believe in chances....
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How's my heart doin.. | Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Hows my heart coping rite now, i juz cant tell.. how is it doin, i cant see...
One thing i noe is tat sumtimes he knew and already accepted the fact tat how life gonna be for him.. but sumtimes in a few mins of day and night he feels like he is in fantasy life again where and when life is like b4 all the chaos happens..
He makes me smile to the fullest and dream happily to the max.. The only fucked up thing bout tat thing is tat wen smile and dream is gonna end.. it makes me frown and my fist get clenched, and makes me hate and punched and shout to anyone or anithing blocking my way.. Due to its Hang Over it makes me have bruise at my knuckles and arm coz all bout the hitting... Its painful..
I cant juz get over it.. its damn hard fer me.. the only one tat now can kiss ma prob away is nurul.. or shud i say lita.. She hates me calling her tat.. But wateva gal.. I'm not acting like i noe u or sumtin.. but i can see tat u kinda like me and care fer me.. Note dis date and time b4 i tell u anitin.. i'm grateful fer ur kindness to care fer me.. but sorry.. if u r gonna expect tat we will be 2gether one day.. i'm sorry.. i will neva.. i'm not trying to bust u up or sumtin.. u juz have to make me fall fer ya.. i will not fall fer anyone unless she makes me...
Lucikly u dun have msn nor internet at home.. as my nick said.. ""Its my turn to be loved (by you) den to love..(i will never love u).... "" juz wanna feel how its like to be like tat.. In the end i will say this... "I'm sorry.. i love u but i cant be wit you...." hahahahahahahaha... U deserve it babe... in my heart.. thanks fer being a full lita... hahahahahaha.... PEACE!!
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The fun is dere... | Monday, September 11, 2006
Dis week is my turning point.. To turn tides to the other direction, to change the wind and to shape up ma LIFE!!
The Fun Is always Dere.. I can see it.. and i took part of the fun too.. the funny thing is tat i juz dun feel it.. dats the BIG problem i'm having.. It may seems stupid or nonsense or may i say IRRITATING.. but yea its true..
The other small matter i'm having rite now is bout my lousy attitude.. U see i dun care for anybody tat wasn't close to me..for example.. my frens... even though we r once close. wen we r apart, ur life is ur lfe and ur business will neva be mine.. i may tend to help a fren in need if i see its worth helping.. The others... i wud say ooh.. ok.. relaks la.. need time la..
Everybody can say tat to get over a relationship it takes time.. Right now i say its BULLSHIT to takes time.. Time can neva help u.. Its u how to handle ur self..Neva had to do wit time.. Dun be stupid and let time take control.. Mite as well u kill urself and its the fastest way out..
Hahaha.. The day dat i went to M.O.S the day tat i'm afraid history will repeat again.. Met with a gal name Nurul with a nick called Lita.. haha.. quite a good clubber she is.. hehe.. i wud like to thank her for accompaniying my lonely nights.. one thing fer sure.. my heart still havent been Cured... So if u tink u r gonna ask me bout her.. den 4 get it.. coz we neva tok bout u b4... PEACE!!
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The q of my Love.. | Thursday, September 07, 2006
If she really loves me will she leave me if i call her names...?
If she really loves me will she gives her number to anyone else..?
If she really loves me will she be there for everyting...?
If she really loves me will she support my hobby my intrest and life..?
If she really loves me must she tok to all the guys who ever liked her...?
If she really loves me Must she do this to me..??
Is this love or os this just a story..?
If I really loves her Must i Sacrifice my love for all the above..
Or must i sacrifice for her to do all tat and be happy...
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Wat a waste of life i have...
Once i like this gal so much... Even more then anitin else..
She is damn special tat i think bout her everyday and nite...
But the sad thing is tat we r never together... She is lovely, sweet, motivating and mostly matured... but she has quite a lot og guy frens.. dat worries me..
She used to say she loves me miss me or need me.. but after time n time she gives her pathetic number to a guy.. She can do it.. but for me wen i juz tok bout my normal galfrens she tend to dislike it..
One day the most horrible happen..i was so damn in need her... And tat fuckin hafiz is toking to her and she ignored me.. Hafiz is the guy she gave her number to at devils bar.. i was so mad tat i start to kol her names such as bitch, Cheap and sumtin else.. i don meant it actually.. juz so angry..
den she start to hate me of coz.. we getting further n further.. i still miss her though... now since dis had happen all the other guys especially hafiz will have a gd chance wit her.. i'm heart broken of coz.. but wat to do...
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I'm Livin W/O u... | Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Wat exactly do u see in me... Ignoring me... never bother bout me.. Wat exactly do u feel for me...???
Am i tat bad or hedious.. Or am i juz not good enuf for u...?
Watever it is u noe wat i want and how i feel.. U intend to ignore it... U wanna be alone for now..?? Or u juz dun wanna be contacted by me..? A simple hug means a lot to me.. Hu the hell hug u..? Is dat wat u kol i wanna be alone...
Now tat u leave me a msg and kol me after ur werk and u remind me bout DIS thing.. It makes me burn to ashes baby.. Juz need u like how i need u normally.. Not like dis...
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startin fresh... | Monday, September 04, 2006
So many words i had go againts for the past 3 months.. so many things hav gone thru.. Learnt new stuffs.. get great teachings and tips bout life.. Its gettin duller and duller everyday.. Without love my life is empty.. With so many things in my mind. i wont destroy myself.. i'll wait for a miracle or for an answer or an unexpected call... Its my fault and i have to bear it.. Let me handle alone coz i do it myself and live wif it... The burden will never end.. until i apart from this treacherous land.. From time to time i think about it.. i cant sleep walk talk or even eat.. My life is empty fill of spaces.. walking around wif zombie faces.. To heaven i fly or hell i fall.. i have to be strong and stand tall.. u noe it ureself tat i'm weak.. i really never meant to u tat all i speak.. Forgiveness i seek and start anew.. Or u rather see me rot and enjoying the view.. I may not rot nor die now.. nor be a man and follow my vows.. Loving u is so much greater.. No one else u r better... its up to u if u have a replacement... den i now i'm un forgiven.. be happy in everything u do.. As wenever u need me.. i'll be dere for you...
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life will never be the same.. | Sunday, September 03, 2006
For every Beginning theres an End..
For every Joy theres Sorrow...
For every Truth there a Lie...
My life is more than tat...
Tats y "Wan's life will never feel better.."
Met a gal.. Never love a gal dat much.. but yet never disgraced a gal da much too...
I will take care, i will be happy, its really great knowing u.....
Im sitting here
Thinking bout
How im gon-na do without
You around in my life and how am II gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live,
I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life
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Name: Hazwan A.K.A WAyNe
Age: 20
An outgoing lame old chap wit no real motives in life.. Likes to break the laws of life and made his own
way of living. Easily tempted and get played by the heart of love.. Dis time it will be his turn..
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